6.28.2005

I'm in Holland

Isn't that weird! i like holland... i almsot got phila tsihrt that says "i (tuplip) holland) instead i got msyel fa thsirt that sys holland and has a picture of a windmill... more on holland later when i post all my trip stuff... and i hav ea nice wifi connection here...

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6.26.2005

I'm in Norway

In norway... have posts i'm working on about the trip... if i have time and internet later i'll post one or two... overall things are rather enjoyable...

back from my day in norway... lots of people look a lot like khautz here... it made me laugh...

internet flaky so if i post this i'll be lucky...

6.19.2005

leaving on a jetplane

i leave for europe tomorrow, i will return july 1st. i may write posts on the cruise, probably will not beable to publish them until i return...

ports:
england
ireland
scotland
norway
netherlands
belgium
france

a dark day for formula1

citing safety concerns due ot tire issues, 14 cars (out of 20) did not run the US Grand Prix... the 6 cars that ran were ferrari, jordan and minardi.... jordan and minardi are both kind of jokes... so it was bascially a 73 lap test session for ferrari... we left around lap 20... it was lame...

of course i'm not happy about this... f1 was struggling in the states as it is... and it will be hard to live this one down... i used to brag about f1 never canceling a race due ot rain or anything... even when 14 cars can't run they run... and the FIA(f1 sanctioning body) stuck strictly to the rules about no tires changes... michelin (the suspect tires) was concerned about safety which really is more important and told the teams not ot run on them... if a chicane were to be added at turn 13 the tires way have been okay... and they wodl ahve ran... every team was okay with this except ferrari... greedy fuckholes... i ahte ferrari again if this is true... they knew they'd get 18 points if none of the michelins would run... i'll be very upset if ferari wins the championship this year becasue of this race....

atleast i only came from dayton... people came from all over the world... as we were leavign a guy from finland, drunk of of his mind and speaking in broken english.. he was wearing a kimi shirt and hat... came all over form finland for this... he was nearly ready to cry.. of course the alcohol contributed to that but i felt so bad for him... and being a kimi fan i really empathized with him... spent so much so he could come see kimi race... poor guy...

i dunno.. i could see this as the end of f1 in the states for a long time... this makes me sad... i still like f1... there no bullshit approach appeals ot me.. rare cuations, races are never delayed... i've had enough rain day experiences with irla nd nascar to get sick of that bullshit... today was jsut unfortunate... the fia i mostly to blame... i sitll prefer f1 to american series, but today was a huge disappointment... i wanted to see kimi win... or atleast race... now i want ferrari to burn... bad...

formula batman

US Grand Prix tomorrow... kimi starintg in P2... i bet he'll beat trulli of the line... and i say he's got a great chacne at winning again... if the tyres hold out... the michelin's are having issues i guess on this course... two failed in friday practice sessions... heh, my little pre race commentary... i'm very excited about going this year... most i've ever followed a racing series...

saw batman begins today... i liked it... maybe i'll comment more later... i need sleep...

6.18.2005

Mr. N, you're on crack...

yarrg... i went to a pirate party last night... i called ahdead an was astounded ot find out there was no rum at a pirate party... so i had ot bring my own... so i made it thorught e eveneing with a few rum and cokes... and the rum made me social and capable of maintaining a conversation like a normal human being... it was nice while it lasted... i spent a fair amount of time talkingot a student from japan studying international studies at a local university, his name is Yasushi (spelling could very well be wrong)... i was able to not laugh every time he said "engrish" but it was hard... i stopped drinking around 11:30 i thjinkto sober up to go home... left aorund 2:15... it was more enjoyable than i thought it would be, not ebing abig party person... and this was a rather big party, by my standards at least... i knew like 5 people there... there were dozens and dozens there though... usualy this makes e extremely uncomfortbale but last night it didn't bother me...

europe in three days... f1 race tomorrow, go mclaren... my mclaren hat has not arrived yet... i ordered it june 2.... they said if it's not here by tuesday they will shop me another one... that does not get my mclaren hat to me in time for the race or europe...

i'm tring to find someone to see batman with me today... which remidns me of a story i ahve from thursday... iw as telling my sister about how while waiting in line at chipotle, and the guy in front of me really annoyed me... (infact i found my self thinking about cutting apart his vertebrate one by one and wondering what teh spinal cord feels and tastes like, i did not share that part with my sister) but he was talking about where he rated ona a scale of 1-10... and how he'sa 5 and if he worked out he could be a 6 or a 7, and witha few other changes could be a 8 but never and 9 or 10 becasue he was too short... maybe this is common, but i don't think anyone is qualified ot rate themsleves.... or atleast verbalize it, talk, discuss it in public to your friend... in their minds i'm sure most people do and thats normal... but i don't need ot here it when i'm standing in line for my burrito... then my sister asked me what i thought he was and i said, "well he's no christian bale"... she found this response to contain a bit too much infromation i think... still looking for someone to accompany me ot batman... i won't eat your spine i promise...

umm work's pretty much over... still lot sto do on theiss but this will be done in my own time... and probably more efficiently too... i've started to get distracted very easily at work recently...

my mind has been pretty clam for a few days now... last night and this mornring it has been more so than than it has been in weeks... i was able to sleep to nearly 11... granted i was up till 3:30... but being able ot comfortbaly sleep till nearly 11 was nice.. and it was very restful...

no one to see batman with... maybe i will go alone...my sister would go, but i'd ahve to buy her ticket... since she already saw it once... my sister hs started calling me Mr. N, i find it amusing... usually Mr. N is followed by a "you're on crack"

that's all for now...

6.16.2005

GPS haircut salsa

today was a good day... i've felt good all day... mind's been good all day... work i wrpaping up... i'llget enough done on thesis ot go backto school and write most of it up...

went out ot el toro oneof my favourite mexican places... then i had my sister cut my hair.. it's not sahved yet.. bti think i may this weekend... i dunno... i've been taling about for ever now...i jsut need ot finally do it... right onw it's the shortest i've had it in years upon years... used the 3/8" guard...

went over to jason's rotated tirees on the seven, their 13/16's fit fine... and they had impact sockets.. which were required... some of the nuts were on mega tight... the nuts would often get stuck insdie the socket... pop them out with a screw driver... i got tired of baning screw drive ronground figured i could do it with my hands... onteh thrid attmept i stabbed the screw driver into my finger... well it tooka a small chunk out atleast... another fine example of my infinte foresight... thsi is nealry as good and lets use a straight rrazor ot be safe cutting stuff and slicing my finger...

showed jasonand jsutin my gps... they were very impressed, jason ordered one as soon as we got back to his place... i ahve not played aorund withthe software too much but i'm without a doubt getting used to it... also tonight was the first timei could concentrate on operating the computer... since i didn't have to drive... wheni drive i rely primarily onthe audio instructions... and may glance at the map now and then... i don't feel safe operating laptop and car at same time...which is probaably slightly wise on my part...

tomorrow is salsa day at work... mike;s bringing some homemade salsa... looking forward to trying it out...

i dunno what else... but i made a post yay for me...

6.15.2005

every other word...

i've spent the last hour or so on the phone with flint folk... it was nice to talk... main reason is some one potentially wants to live with us this summer... but no one knows him at all... phil brian and i all feel i'tll be in our best interest to pay the extra money and stay withour current line of of tenants... this mix works as well as one could expect, we don't wanna mix it up... i was very nice ot talk and bullshit with them... hehe i forgot how much brian swears... every other word was "fuck" , some form of, or "shit"... i just started laughing... i couldn't help it... but talkignot people really keeps my mind focused right now... i've come to dislike being alone for the time being...

what else... i should try for sleep soon... catch up on some sleep...

running on 3 hours of sleep...

my doggie woke me up at 3:30 barking at something... shortly follwoing this my mind went apeshit and sleep ran away quick and far... i tried for tow horus or so theni went into work early... it was nice... i think i'll do that as habit now... being i have not slept past 6 more than one or two times the past two weeks...

security exercises this week at work... i was lucky i went in early today... if went in at my normal time i would have been inline for over an hour trying to get on base...

thesis, is okay... not going as smoothly as i had planned... and running on three hours of sleep limit productivity by the end of the day... atleast for me... maybe i'm just weak...

europe... leaving for monday... this will be a very nice break i think... assuming i can keep my mind under control...

issues affecting my mind.... thesis, should be able to finish but still something that causes a small amount of concern... plans after graduation... i have no clue what i'm gonna be doing after decemeber... i will not be continueing my tenure withthe government... mostly likely options are grad school at either MSU or OSU... just a big unknown... not something i've put a huge amount of thought into yet... need to... but jsut haven't felt that i've been in a state of mind to make any valid conclusion... i have not been in a state of mind much recently capable of making many valid conclusions on anything... and lastly and unfortunately the most bothersome for me... i've allowed feelings for a certain person to grow too strong given our current situations and circumstances, i don't know what to do, she doens't know what to do... we still talk on the phone most days or nights what ever ends up working... but i just really don't know... depending on my state of mind my feelings go all over the place, i'm confident is certain feelings, others jsut confuse me... its something i have no control over, but at times it's impossible for me be not to think and worry about... i try to make a point not to worry aboout things i have no control over... this is a huge i just don't know... it takes my mind palces i don't want it to go... ::shrugs::

ah, running on 3 hours of sleep... i feel okay at the moment... mind is being decent... septic tank pumper came here and sidetracked me... he was nice, fairly strong southern accent... orignally from North Carolina... anyways... it is now time to eat supper... i don't feel that hungry... i don't much recently... goes hand in hand with the sleep being evasive...

6.14.2005

saving the world...

i didn't forget today... i've been busy... my gps came... and i was playing around with that a bit... then made progress in saving the world of gaunlet legends with my sister... then went and same kicking and scremaing and here i am... thinking about goingot work maybe 45 mionutes early or so tomorrow... trya nd get a lot done... it's late andi should sleep...

6.13.2005

random thoughts...

ah.. another day... can't say i accomplished much at work... watched a couple guys be taken up to 7 G's in the centrifuge... other than that it was rather uneventful...

my sister blows up very fast... it's rather astounding... i won't miss that...

walked the doggie... have not been keeping up on that as much as i would like to...

rob at work is thinking about getting an old rx-7 like mine... that made me a bit excited...

my right wrist hurts... i honestly don't know what from...

getting back to geeky endeavours... tonight i've been fooling aorund with undervolting my laptop... benefits are decreased, heat and power consumption... leads to longer battery and laptop life.. yipee... at max speed (1.6Ghz) cpu runs at only 1.02V down from 1.4V... at min speed (600Mhz) running at 0.7V... yipee... i like my pentium m... it's a good little chip...

thinking about taking my desktop back to air cooling... but i have not used the desktop for a long time.. well i used it this weekned ot get some songs off it it for my sister ot put on her zen micro... but other than that i have little use for it, being that i have nto been in the mood for video games in a long long time... i'm startingot wonder if i even need to take it to flint with me... i'll be taking lilmissdivx, she has msot of my hardrives in her... i dunno...

i slept very well last night... best sleep in well over a week... it was very very nice...

got side tracker had ot help my dad move branches aroudn back yard... i got a thorn in a finger doing so...

mind is still all over the place... still have moments of feeling extremely confused...

tomorrow i need to focus at work... i think i will be able to...

6.12.2005

it's a post, i'll work on witty titles more in the future....

yesterday evening i was in an extremely anti-social mood... but i was remained with people till midnight... it got better over time... the proper people helped bring me around... but some people jsut i dunno, i jsut want nothing ot do with them...

i was able to sleep till 8:30 today... tha'ts hte latest i've slept in over a week... i've been getting up at 6 everyday, don't usually get up for work till 7... i woke up 7 yesterday, saturday, could sleep no more... too much on my mind... luckily i'm not having too many problems falling asleep... so 'm still getting atleast 5 hours of sleep which i guess is enough...

f1... i thought todays race was pretty good... mclaren won! yay Kimi! for awhile i thought it was gonna be a McLaren 1-2 finish, but Montoya got black flagged for rushing out of the pits with the red light on for the safety car... felt bad for fisichella leading then out with mechanincal problems... but the same thing happened last race with Kimi, so what goes arond comes around... Alonso hit a wall, borke his suspension... he made a msitake don't feel bad for him... ferrari finished 2-3... i guess they can start being a threat again, their image of invinciblilty has been ruined for this season... alonso and renault sitll lead driver and manufacturer standings... kimi and mclaren are getting rather close now though...

got a usb pvr thing today... on sale at best buy... i'd been looking for awhile, and this was a dela i liked... seems ot work decently... i'll be recoridng all the fox cartoons tonight, see how it works...

i need to rotate the tires on the 7.. i have cheap pepboys in the back... they are very bad itneh rain... even exercising caution itneh rain i usually fish tail some... today i was thinking about how carefuli was being and then about 5 seconds later i was sliding down the road sideways... i recovered and striaghtened ou with out spinning completely and i didn't stall out... it was the largest fish tail id' ever recovered from.. nearly 90 degrees... i was tkaing up both lanes.. luckily on coming traffic was vigilant and they stopped for me... i felt like an idiot buti couldn't help but laugh abouthte whole thing... but i got lucky this time... i was gonna do the tires today but i coudl n't find a socket to fit on my wheel nuts... and the tire iron is MIA... i've taken the wheels off before... forget the size i used... 7/8's a hair too big, 13/16's too small... dont' have metric's that big... and i've gotten them off before with outthe tire iron.. so i was confused and i gave up...

hmm... i wonder the plans for supper tonight.. sundays are usually weird late suppers...

work tomorrow... i guess i'm looking forward to that, i'm not left finding stuff to do on my own...

i may be going hiking later this week... this should provide many a good opportunity for pictures...

i hope my mclaren hat gets here in time for the US Grand Prix... it's hard ot find them at reasonable prices... i finally found a place in europe i think... $20 shipped.. i found some as expensive as $45... for a farking baseball cap...

ah... there's another post... i'm gonna og find soemthing else to do... atleast make an attempt to...

6.11.2005

pieces coming together, others still missing...

well... this week i was actually able to focus and think enough to get a decent amount of stuff done at work... still have moments of of uncontrolable thoughts though... but it is somewhat better...

sister lost her rio carbon, we think it fell into her trash can and my mom threw it out by mistake... i talked her into a zen micro this time... i like it a lot... it has the on the fly play list maker feature that i like so much on my nomad... the micro feels much sturdier than the carbon... it is also less susceptible to scratches such as the ones that covered the carbon in less than a week... the controls take some getting used ot onthe micro... but i like it...

got my monthly cd's this week... ups dropped the package and the jewel cases were shattered... the cd's and inserts were fine though... the record company accepts no responsiblity for dmaged items... and i didn't feel like going through a complaint process with ups... everything worked fine jsut have two cracked cases... reinforeces me dislike of ups though... the cd's were new releases by Noise Unit and Mind.in.a.box... have not listened to noise unit too much yet...from wha ti have it sounds like stanadard Bill Leeb stuff... nothing very new or original... not too impressed... mind.in.a.box i am enjoying... much less harsh than my previous purchases, rather relaxing... sometimes a bit geeky... but i find it to be very atmospheric... its helped me better grasp the idea of a soundscape i think...

i've also been listening to the newest puppy album(year old now) a lot... it really jsut, i dunno really in tune with my mood i guess... has really been pulling me in...

visited my friends jason and justin for the first time last weekend... i felt bad for waiting so long to see them... stopped by his place another time this week... and got a cheap pizza form him at work yesterday... it was good ot hang out with them.. i may be heading over ther later today...

sister had her graduation and respective party... so she's done... going to OSU inthe fall.. biology/premed or something... she had a huge scholarship to case western she turned down... no one here was too happy about that...

There had been talk about Liz coming for a visit to flint this summer... events have caused that to become rather tentative unfortunately... this has saddened me... but i guess there's always time...

one week of work then trip to europe...then its about time to return to flint... i'm ready... it'll be a fun term i think...

US Grand Prix next weekend, go McLaren.. canada grand prix tomorrow.. go McLaren... too bad Kimi's tire went retarded on him inthe europe grandprix... still glad ferrari isn't at the top though...

still so many unknowns... so many questions there are just no answers for at the moment... i'm trying my best to focus on knowns that need addressed in short order(thesis)... but the unknowns are becoming daemons that eat away at me from the inside...

i'm gonna begin to make more frequent attempts to post...

6.02.2005

i just don't know...

i dunno... don't feel like posting... i just am having trouble really focusing on much of anything... my thoughts are all over the place... and this is happening far too often... it helps if i'm not alone... one of the few times in life i'd rather not be alone... then my thoughts don't run so amuck... so i dunno... i'd like to say i'll start making regular posts before too long but i really don't know... i don't know about anything right now...