9.30.2006

the slightest hesitation can bring you down in flames...

i've taken a few more small steps down the path, i don't think i tripped too terribly or anything, and i feel they only could have helped... but they could have been bigger, i could have seen around the bend... as it stands now, there's one final step before i can see what hides there...

i was in decent spirits yesterday after the physics exam, convinced i did as good as i ever would have done... then spirits were raised even higher when my exam on monday was converted into a take home exam due tuesday at midnight... so was feeling pretty good about everything... then there was a pop quiz in my undergrad class which went poorly... for everyone it seems... it really killed the buzz...

went out with M & D last night... it was a good time, later we meet up with one of my former students , it was a good time... we're supposed to go to the shooting range today... yeehaw...

now, i'm going to watch the MSU game... go spartans... if you lose this i'm going to give up on you...

9.29.2006

well, the exam is over, didn't do great, but i'm not mad at myself... the stuff i didn't know i wouldn't have studied any way... no one finished and everyone i've talked felt the same in regards to additional studying... walking to class there was another student behind me and his friend was walking toward us on the way to the restroom or something... i overheard one of them say "see you in hell", and it made me laugh...

9.28.2006

today i was reminded why i prefer studying alone... i don't mind group homework, i prefer that now... but group studying isn't always good, it is good when i have a question now and then... but i'm not sure if it's worth the being exposed to other people panicking... they just freak out, they obviously need a course in economics to learn about the law of diminishing returns so they can chill the fark out... i feel somewhat prepared, there's lots of room for error, but i'm sure i'll do fine... or fail miserably, in which case i can look back and say hey at least i didn't freak out... ah the cocky student in me has returned...

chinese take out tonight... it's my thursday thing, have to stop by and see the skinny puppy lady... she was training a new girl tonight, she said she'd only be working there for a bit longer... she said where she was going but i had no idea where it was... i didn't ask... maybe i will next week... sounded like L&L??

paid rent today, and told them i'd be sticking around for another year... i'll be here at least that long... hopefully no longer, i'm really not planning on a phd now... i forget too much stuff, the qualifiers would be the end of me... i obviously don't take tests seriously enough these days, and that would be the mother of all tests... i can't fail if i don't try... plus i'd really like a house or at least a condo... i hate paying rent, at the end you have nothing to show for it...

hung out at P and H's this evening... i swear alot around them... old habits die hard... high levels of wedding stress there of course, i gave my humble opinion on the font for the seating tags... when p got home he was asked the same question... he pointed to the one i had preferred and said it was boring... i guess it is, but i find elegance in simplicity...

i have an incomplete download from a friend of a grendel remix, and it's amazing atleast what i can hear of it, i want the whole thing... i wonder if the release it was on is still available...

i should sleep early tonight, early morning cram session... at the very least it'll get my brain in gear before go time...

i spend time thinking about possible futures(like kosh)... i'm pretty certain i'll be in dayton... i'll have to fark something up seriously, or luck turns sour and money disappears... and i'd be fine in living in dayton, pretty low cost of living, we have all the seasons, and no natural disasters unless you live in xenia, which i won't... provided i can earn enough to afford a fair amount of traveling i'd be very content there... though there is another area i am extremely uncertain on... i need to take a few more steps on the current path before i know anything for sure, those next few steps could bring me to the end, or lead on to many many more, i can't see around the bend so i just need to take them... then maybe i'll stop paying so much attention to wolfsheim lyrics(couldn't find a nice wooded trail with a bend in my archives, so here's a slight bend from brugge, belgium)

9.27.2006

no more doubler, hurrah!

yay, my biggest stress source has just been eliminated... i did some pretty rough test today with extremely simple doubler designs... i soldered a surface mount diode to a microstrip transmission line, hooked up a function generator to one end spectrum analyzer to the other and took some data, then i soldered some small lengths of wire to another surface mount diode and soldered the wires to the microstrip with the second diode positioned as close as possible to the first one... maybe i shouldn't feel proud of this but i knew exactly what tools to use(func. gen, spectrum analyzer) and i taught myself surface mount soldering... not that it was really tricky in this scenario... just i had never done it before... in the research complex the only spectrum analyzer was a analog dinosaur with a bunch of knobs and no buttons... i don't like knobs, they confuse me... so i went to the engineering building and used my teaching lab keys from my days as a TA to utilize the button infested digital analyzers... anyway all of this was to compare the existing single diode doubler to a dual diode design... the single diode was far more efficient, so the only hopes of a more efficient design would be attempting a rather exotic beast... so to avoid wasting time trying to develop an exotic and probably more expensive design we've decided to stick with the existing single diode doubler! so i got off the hook this time, whew! this is a huge relief...

tomorrow will be an all day study orgy in the library... yay residue calculus! yay branch cuts!! yay riemann sheets!!! i almost feel guilty, the others in the em posse are stressed to the limit over this test, where i've been more concerned with the freq. doubler... and now that tha'ts been resolved i feel pretty damn good... sure i may stress for a bit tomorrow when i get overwhelmed... but i guess i have either a blessing or a curse but i'm always able to say enough is enough put it all on the back burner and escape for a bit...

i drove around in the turbo 7 tonight, i was M's neighbourhood and he said he wanted to see it if i had a chance so i called him up and stopped by, he liked it and is still enthusiastic about buying the n/a...

class was class, i don't remember much, the new material isn't on the exams so it's not going to show up on my radar for five more days...

for supper i bought some of the fresh(within the day) sushi at meijer, i tried the dragon roll, crabmeat and some veggies in rice with slices of avocado on top of the rice... it was tasty... i also got more precut fruit, tuna, and some rawhide for Tay... i didn't have any today but several times a week i'll get a small fresh baguette at meijer and slice it up and dip in olive oil with some added spices... yum yum...

i saw the vanity plate "SHMALE" on a pink cougar today... the driver looked like a life long female to me though... i was a bit disappointed... or maybe i should be impressed...

oh, any recommendations on a free ftp program?

and since i've failed miserably producing new photos i'll tap into my archives... windmill near rotterdam, netherlands... i don't think i've posted this image before...

9.26.2006

my laptop power supply is driving me nuts... it doesn't work in all outlets any more... i really don't understand it at all... i guess i should be placing an order for a new one... i only use my desktop for fark when i'm eating breakfast and lunch and to play music in my apartment...in the evening i'll settle on my couch with my laptop and do stuff an i us it often throughout the day at school... and all my work is done on it... its all i really need... so a power supply failure would be not good...

we dominated the lab today, finished a two week lab in one lab period... so we don't have to show up next week, which makes my tuesday clear, yay! the current TA's have not been trained on the second half of the lab yet... lynn pointed out that we're rather cocky in lab, which i had to agree with... its good to feel cocky now and then i think... only then do i feel like i have a handle on anything...

my cockiness was soon flushed away once i started working on the doubler though... it brought on a mammoth headache...

tomorrow is class day... i'll do some studying, and i'm seeing if can meet someone to discuss the doubler face to face... i hate phones, and i'm no longer too fond of email, prefer face to face now... i feel like i'm just being tapped to beat a dead horse, they have a doubler design that works, and the product has already been significantly improved over the previous version...sure there may be some room for additional improvement... but i'm not qualified, i have zero experience with microstrip design, i'm taking a class right now that will cover it shortly but i'm clueless at the moment, so i'm trying to learn that, plus design a doubler to use with the microstrip, plus 2 grad courses, one of which i can spend 8+ hours a week on homework plus an undergrad course with a lab, plus my private sessions on material from another grad course to teach me some stuff so i can start my own thesis work and finally some other side work for another student getting equipment for material tests... the doubler is the only thing that really has me going, i'm not stressing over classes anymore... not at the moment.. thursday through monday that may be another story though...

i feel like i'm starting to pull my weight in the group homework efforts, i guess my school hat finally made it back from the cleaners or wherever i left it... i think stress may be breaking at least one of the others down... he's acted differently for about a week now... or maybe something else happened, i dunno i didn't ask... i was going to but we were never alone...

i've received 5 myspace friend requests in the past 20 minutes... goofy people i have no clue as to who they are...i think a lot of them want me to pay money to see them nekkid...

Tay and I went for our longest walk yet... we made it to the woods, then we turned around... usually the furthest we go is only till the parking lot disappears... a couple times we had gone to the other apartment complex, we hadn't even made it to the bridge before, then today we went past the bridge to the entrance to the woods... after the woods is the loop... anyway... she did good, so i look forward to being able to take her on real walks before too long...

9.25.2006

haha, i made a joke about riemann sheets!

the lab report went astonishingly smoothly... we worked on it after physics and hammered out most of it, later i finished up some work with making tables pretty and appropriate... and tonight i got an email with the one remaining section attached... so i stuck that in and did a few more changes and that was that... i could easily be the smoothest 12 page lab report i've had a hand in producing...

stochastics was canceled today due to instructor illness...

after classes i went to the research complex to do some work... i discovered the library is the only place i can actually get stuff done any more... i ended up talking for three hours... first to a german exchange student, he was watching soccer scores for his home team, and we got talking about how you have to buy cable to see soccer games in germany, and i mentioned how i have to pay to upgrade phil's satellite subscription to watch formula1 and he was amazed tha ti was an f1 fan, so we got talking about that for a long while... and we even got to some nascar bashing, yay!... i read his computer screen and check with him to see if i translated the german correctly, i get the idea of the majority of it... we had a good laugh today looking at the soccer scores... one of the teams was called Rot - Weiss Essen, so i asked if that team was called red - white food? it turns out that essen in addition to meaning food is also the name of a town... then i talked to another office mate till nearly six...

tay wants to go out... i was petting her and she nearly knocked over my glass with her waggy tail...

i bought precut melon today... i'm so lazy... but cutting up a melon is work and makes a mess... then i never eat the whole thing before it spoils anyway... and this way i get honey dew, cantaloupe, and watermelon all mixed together in one reasonable sized serving... i also got my weekly allotment of bagels and yogurt... !oh fark me, i forgot to get tuna! i ran out today...

i had to buy some floppies to use with a network analyzer in lab tomorrow... meijers only had packages of 30, i didn't need that many... walmart had packages of ten... these ten will probably last me the rest of my life... maybe i can sell them for $1 a piece tomorrow in lab... i wouldn't do that though.. i'd just give them away... i don't even have a computer that can read floppies any more... no drive for laptop and my desktop drive is no longer functioning... luckily the drives in the labs still work and have intraweb access...

i got a quote for a torque wrench for 7mm connectors... nearly $300 for a wrench, test equipment prices are nuts... i figured $50 or so... maybe even $100, but $300!

tomorrow will be interesting, i get to be on the receiving end of a lab that i ran in the spring as a TA... i'll either remember stuff and it'll go mega smoothly and i'll feel smart, or i'll forget stuff and feel like a dumbass...

doubler work tomorrow as well as some studying of the physics... oh dear... this reminds me of friday where after a few drinks i made a joke about riemann sheets... a topic we talked about in physics... i don't know what's worse that i made the joke or that other people laughed at it...

9.24.2006

well, things are not as bad as i had thought with the doubler... i feel i have something of a grasp on it... maybe?

the sunfire needs some brake work done... and new tires... 52k miles... i guess it is time for some of that wear maintenance... along those lines i've decided to drive the sunfire till i at least have a real job, or it becomes more costly to keep it road worthy than monthly payments would be... i forgot how limited funding becomes when i switch back to student mode...

i was driving down grand river today and noticed a chipotle... this was new, in the spring there were no chipotles in michigan... later at home i checked their website and found that there are now two chipotles in michigan, one sort of kind of near detroit, and the other right here in east lansing... so i had chipotle for dinner... i forgot how incapacitating they are... i shouldn't have eatten the whole thing...

i listened to a cd from band called terrorfakt today... quick run down... experimental industrial guy/group from new york been around 5 years or so... his/their "music" is insane, i can't recall anything else that is nearly as intense, it makes download seem sane... and it brings my laptop speakers to their knees... the best i could do to describe it would be super-mega-high-energy-noise... its earned a place in my rotation... i think i could stay up for weeks at a time if i played it nonstop... unfortunately i don't think i'd be able to concentrate on anything with it playing... i'm not sure what emotions it arouses in me, part of me wants to go into a trance and another part wants to murder lots and lots of people really really fast... well shiat, just saw he was in detroit less than two weeks ago...

last night and all of today opera fails to load music on myspace pages... it has always worked before... ie loads them fine... but not opera... what happened? maybe it's time to upgrade to version 9...

i fear plan b may be much closer than i had thought... grr... this is somewhat unsettling...

tomorrow we need to write a lab report... and i need to do more doubler stuff and i need to look over 835 notes so i can talk to shank about them so i get my 835 knowledge six months early... physics exam friday... stochastics exam monday...these both should be rather scary...

what the hell ever happened to the lords of acid?

new friends, old friends...

friday i went over to a fellow grad student's apartment for a cookout followed by some card games... it was a good time... i learned how to play spades... to me it had a lot of similarities to euchre which having gone to high school in ohio i am very familiar with... i think it was also the first time i had high life since i was drinking it from a 40 in flint...

today i cleaned up the apartment some... i cut my hair... i went to grand rapids with phil to check out a cyber cafe he wants to have his bachelor party at... it brought back many memories of flint... ddr, unreal tournament, flaky cable internet, and some grade-A geeks... things seemed a lot simpler in those days... i thought i knew something then... now i'm convinced i hardly know a damn thing...

buckeyes won, yay... i'll always root for osu, i can't not do it... being born in columbus i'll always bleed scarlet and gray(God, did i just say that... i guess it must be true)... in fact during physics friday a guy who went to osu for undergrad was wearing an osu jersey, i couldn't help myself but give him the infamous "O-H" to which he responded "I-O"... part of me is ashamed, part of me is proud...

spartans lost, boo... it was a great game, a wonderful come back by the drunken irish(ha i'm so witty mixing irish stereotypes with the school's mascot, i'm sure that's never been done before...)... the spartans losing clears up who i'll root for come october 14th when the buckeyes and spartans meet... assuming osu is still undefeated i'll want them to keep their flawless record...

tomorrow i will be busy... right now i feel i'm over my head on the frequency doubler... tomorrow i'll probably realize i'm absolutely farked...

i feel i often could be descibed as a cynic... but the standard definitions aren't very flattering...

Negative or pessimistic, as from world-weariness, Expressing jaded or scornful skepticism or negativity.

so i looked up cynicism on wikipedia today seeing what else there was to it...

A modern cynic typically has a highly disapproving attitude towards social norms, especially those which serve more of a ritualistic purpose than a practical one, and will tend to question the validity a substantial proportion of popular beliefs, morality and wisdom. Many cynics tend to frown upon the typical thought patterns of society and desire a change, though they deem it unlikely...

...Despite the negative portrayal of cynics, some would argue that such people simply “refuse to look through rose-colored glasses” and do not fear to openly criticize typical societal behaviour. Cynics themselves tend to take this view, regarding themselves as enlightened, and their critics as unwilling to accept the harsh reality who “bury their heads in the sand".


and this i would more readily agree with...

it's late and i'm just rambling about anything that comes to mind now...

9.22.2006

paths to choose...

well, i think today was the first of many 10+ hour days at school... it's not too bad... it keeps me busy and i don't have the guilt of feeling like there's something else i should be doing... i should sleep but it's thursday, i never sleep at reasonable times on thursdays... i need to get up early tomorrow i'm meeting lynn before class to hopefully finish up the homework... we hit some nasty road blocks this evening... then i had other school/work stuff to do...

i talked to my boss today... he's advised me to switch advisors, and i agree it's nigh impossible to track down my current one, and my project will involve the other profs in the group more anyway... i'm not sure who i want... one is very laid back and friendly to everyone while be extremely knowledgeable... the other is just nuts, insanely brilliant, very quick thinker, he expects alot and he scares pretty much all of the other students... but he really likes me for some reason, so he doesn't scare me... in fact i get friendlier vibes from him than the friendly to everyone prof... i need to think about it some... i'm really not sure... do i let his scary reputation influence my decision or go with my gut feeling... i feel there are potentially greater pay offs from being driven harder... it'll be good for me honestly... plus it'll be a boost to personal pride working with the notoriously harsh prof... or do i take the easier way out, with the profs everyone loves... regardless i'll be working with both of them... just who do i want to be responsible for me...

i'm tentatively planning for a trip to dayton oct. 21st, my sister's birthday... i need to do some stuff for my boss down there...

i talked to my mom this morning... i hadn't heard from them for about two weeks... it was nice... small doses are welcome...

i didn't get to do laundry today either... didn't get home early enough...

my laptop psu is getting flakey...

lets try some sleep...

9.20.2006

another day...

chiasm, in my opinion is great atmospheric music... i could just have it playing nonstop in my apartment...it reminds me of music from the vampire the masquerade computer games... which i guess it should since she did do a track for the second one that came out a couple years ago... but all of it seems fitting...

it's getting cool out, i sort of welcome it, so long as it stays at these temps... i'm not ready for winter cold... but fall cool is more than welcome...

class was class... have an idea on my thesis now, it'll just be preliminary work for a product for my boss... so once i get the doubler done i have something else to take it's place... so much shit to do...

i changed the alternator belt this evening, got one half an inch short and it can be tensioned much better... i'll still watch for rubber powder accumulating on the engine though...

dinner was salmon, baked potato, and fresh green beans... i was going to do laundry but the machines were occupied... tomorrow night...

my stochastic exam has been pushed back a week... which is fine, it is still before my 3 trips to detroit, now it's the day of the SG show...

there's a guy that lives in the building across the parking lot who also has a dog, the other day were both had our dogs out for the morning piss and dog the dogs away and then were heading toward are cars... he stopped at the bottom of his stairs and half turned around and waved to his dog and smiled... this really touched me for some reason... i can't remember if i've waved to tay as she's watching me leave or not... but she always does... and if she's at the window when i'm returning she see's me and is then sitting in front of the door waiting for me... this is new, now that her leg has been fixed... before it caused too much pain for her i assume...

tomorrow is full of possibilities... and i'm looking forward to it, looking forward to another chance... maybe...

9.19.2006

its not stopping for awhile...

so... went out with brian friday night... it was the most inebriated i had been since Montréal... then i woke up at 7:30, i didn't want to but i couldn't sleep anymore... then it was running around toledo getting some bolts, gaskets and such for my exhaust...

the exhaust is on and much quieter, doesn't sound perfect, we think the muffler may be slightly damaged, the improvement is substantial though and for the time being i'm happy with it... also changed the oil and tranny fluid... the plan was to also do the diff, but we couldn't round up the required 23mm socket, so that was put off to another day...

next thing to fix, alternator pulley, i need to get a dual pulley and hopefully the tension will be better it's already as tight as it can go and it does some not good things... the belts rubs on the motor because of the lack of tension... so this needs addressed...

after playing grease monkey we got some dinner and hung out at brian's apartment... i was already exhausted at this point and i really should have went back to lansing, but i decided to stick to my plan and go to detroit for the show... i got there around 9:45, i was pretty out of it the entire time, feeling significantly more anti-social than usual...

i enjoyed the first band, a local artist called chiasm, she put on a good show and i really enjoyed her music, enough to purchase a cd... but of course i'm a sucker for female vocals...

the second band, hypodermic... i umm didn't care for... a lot of their friends and family came to see them perform so they had a huge crowd, which was fine... but their vocals... uhg... vocals i don't find agreeable can ruin it for me, this is the only reason i think of that i can't stand system of a down... with system of a down he has a whine i don't like.. this band i can't really put my finger on it, but it didn't agree with me... the bar was neat and had multiple levels... i ended up going down to the first floor during their performance, the DJ played some puppy so i was content...

the third band, cruciform injection made sticing around through the second band worth while and eliminated any regrets for having gone... i had seen them before opening for grendel in chicago... i purchased a cd based on that performance, and frankly i was a bit disappointed by the cd, i wasn't sure why... after seeing them live again i'm pretty sure it's because they have so much more energy when live than on the recording, very crowd interactive, even though there was only about 20 of us there... and they was made fun of detroit and hamtramck... but i'd gladly see them again as well as chiasm...

the ride home i was playing music very loud and shouting out the lyrics to force myself to stay awake... finally after a long day of wrench turning, concerting, driving and red bull i got home around 3:15 sunday...

season 2 of nip/tuck arrived friday before i left, so i watched a few episodes sunday afternoon, then went to dinner with my boss my advisor another professor and a couple other people, it was fun, and i guess they had a thesis topic for me.. but i don't know about it yet... yay... i don't really care at the moment, i don't have time to devote any considerable amount of time to it anyway...

monday was class and lab report writing... around 10 i went over to phil and hal's to return their key, i stuck around and helped hal with some physics homework... it was comforting realizing i do in fact still know a few things from my undergrad career...

today was lab followed by homework... one of the problems was three pages of algebraic manipulations, such bullshit work we were all pissed... goofy undergrad homework... it gave me a nasty headache that didn't go away till about 8:30...

tomorrow more class and more homework and i need to find some time to spend on the frequency doubler...

not sure what i'm doing this weekend yet, i think i'm going with phil to grand rapids to check out a place he thinks he wants to go for his bachelor party... i've yet to spend an entire weekend in lansing this semester...

next week will just be not good... exam monday in a class i have done nothing for outside of class so it'll be all sorts of fun... then friday the first physics exam which will be a nightmare...

the week after that i'll be a good busy, three concerts in detroit, monday, thursday, and friday... i can't wait...

now i have another episode of nip/tuck to watch and then off to bed...

so many thing...

i've been busy... and now i'm tired... i really meant to make a good post tonight but things came up and i didn't have time... maybe tomorrow i'll find some time... just so busy nothing really good, nothing really bad...

9.14.2006

it had been a while since i was nasty...

did homework today... maybe it's kind of sad but i enjoying meeting with the others to work on homework it's umm fun... and we're all anticipating one day before too long we're going to be asked to leave the library for causing too much of a disturbance...there's the dangerous negro... he gets excited and starts swearing very loudly for a library... then i can't stop laughing... he's really good at the math though...there's lynn who has a delightfully dry sense of humour....there's mike who i like, he started in the spring like i did... they all know there stuff very well... mike called me nasty n8 today, i didn't even say anything off colour... it had been a long while since i was called that... it brought back memories of bovine finger part I...(i can provide a link if you really wanna see it!)

i tried another chinese carry out place for supper... it was much faster than where i went last time... and cheaper... and the lady asked me if my skinny puppy shirt was for the band... it's a longer drive.. but it's cheaper, faster, and a middle aged puppy fan works there...they win!

i cut my hair tonight... now i'm one itchy mofo... i also brushed tay... and now my balcony is covered in white hair... i hope the wind comes...

i have no picture today... i did buy some bug spray so i can venture furhter along the bike path now... it's nice back there... i'll have some great picture of it once the snow comes... it should be nice once the leaves turn too...

assuming no problems with the car i'll have a very busy weekend... toledo tomorrow, there saturday till the evening then i'm going to detroit for some live music then to lansing late to sleep... meeting sunday with boss and advisor... yay...

white people, yay!

i woke up with this song in my head... i can't get youtube to retrieve my blog info so here's a link...

here comes the rain again....

i should sleep, but i don't feel i can at the moment... i don't have anything i have to do till 1 tomorrow... so i guess its all good...

the most exciting thing that happened today was that the sun came out... it has been shrouded by the clouds for 5 days or so i believe... i took the tII out for a bit since it had stopped raining too... swapping the exhaust this weekend... that will be good... apart from it annoying the shiat outta me on the freeway and preventing me from driving it at night out of consideration of people trying to sleep, it should eliminate the kid racer vibe of the car... i hope... it'll be just a stock looking 20 year old rx-7... i don't like when having the oil changed or even filling up with gas employees coming over and begin asking me about my exhaust... and i get the impression that they think i think i'm hot shit because my car is stupid loud... they always look puzzled when i tell them i hate it... anyway, the sun went away and again it rains...

the choker has done wonders for tay's leash manners... yay...

her... i need someone to discuss some creepiness factors with... i don't know how long i should wait for another brief parking lot encounter, that i'll probably not take full advantage of, before i take a more active approach... and what that active approach might be...

after doing tII stuff i'm going to try and catch the cruciform injection show in hamtramck... it won't be too far out of my way from toledo... then drive back home afterwards... the other two bands seem pretty decent too after listening to some snippets on myspace... i have seen CI before in chicago when they opened for grendel about a year ago... i enjoyed them enough to purchase their album...

purchased covenant/rotersand tickets last night... we were getting slightly worried since they hadn't shown up on ticket master and it was less than a month before the performance date... i can't wait...

i'm about due for a new picture... i'll have to get on that tomorrow...

grr to spicy food it's kicking my ass tonight, boo...

it is beginning to feel like fall... i love fall...

blogger having issues not sure when this will post...

9.12.2006

should i be working?

yesterday i noticed something... well, i've noticed it for awhile.. but i had never put the pieces together before... i started buying the ultra low cut socks because regular socks bother me... also, pajama pants... in the past i've had pairs that had elastic around the ankles.. and i hated them... i love pajama pants for around the apartment, if they're just open at the bottom... so last night i finally put it together and realized i simply don't like shit around my ankles...

today i called my sister, i wanted to see if she had season 2 of niptuck.. but she only has season 3, her friend had purchased seasons 1 and 2... then we talked for 40 minutes or so... its weird for me to spend that much time on the phone...

i had to buy a new coat type thing... i have my winter coat... but that's overkill... and it's far too big now... the only long sleeved shirt i had up here was a old military surplus shirt i've had since the 8th grade or so... it's falling apart and has paint on it... i got a shirt jacket thing at walmart... it's actually pretty similar in appearance and texture... it's grey instead of olive, which i prefer, plus it has some pockets in the normal jacket position to rest your hands in...it was a good upgrade better colour and better pocket so it actually feels like a jacket...

97% humidity is the suck...

i decided to try a choker on tay tonight...she's been getting more and more stubborn on the leash... before the surgery i didn't feel right choking her... cause she really couldn't move any faster with out considerable pain... since the surgery she's been doing acting very good, and i know she can move faster without any problems... but she wasn't getting any better leash manners... she did lots better with the choker... so now i have a way of teaching her how she should behave...

dammit, i hate getting work related email at 10:30pm or even 11:30pm... and this one guy has sent me emails at those times for the past three nights... makes me look bad cause i'm sure as shit not working at 11 at night...

weekend with a hint of monday...

well... i'm going to be busy as all hell the next month or so... there was a project i was supposed to work on this summer before i got the opportunity to work in dayton for the summer... the project was handed off to someone else, which was fine... but it's crunch time now and par of it has come back to me... so i've been tasked to design a microstrip frequency doubler in less than a month having had absolutely zero experience with microstrip design... right now i just want to complain somewhere... i'm sure i'll get it figured out and everything will be hunky dory(how do you spell that?)... but i'm going to be busy no doubt... it'll be a great test though.. i'll feel good if i pull it off... and i'll know i can do useful work where it counts, since everyday i'm reminded of how weak my math and theory are... but all the math and theory in the world aren't worth much unless you can build something...

anyways... with all this impending work i spent the evening watching several episodes from season 1 of nip/tuck... it was on sale for $20 saturday... and my sister watches it and the few episodes i saw were enough to arouse my interest...atleast theres only one disc left now...

friday saw "the illusionist" with phil and hal... i enjoyed it...

saturday went to detroit to go out with julia and randy, it was a good time, very good to see them and very glad i went... in fact i was rather relieved to get the invite from julia since i don't think i would have had any human contact saturday other than at the store otherwise... took tay with me, no throwing up and she behaved, atleast while we were with her... oh, had another "encounter" too... went ok, i made up with her doggie... and we wished each other a good weekend...

sunday... drove home early afternoon... and did pretty much nothing the rest of the day... i started feeling rather poorly by mid afternoon... i felt fine for awhile... and i didn't have all that much to drink so i don't think it was really a hang over...

today eh... class... realizing i don't know a god damn thing... more work, oh well... i know i know enough and i can learn fast enough... but it also is preventing me from really giving any consideration to a phd... though it's still early and i'm just a bit overwhelmed... this arrangement is only temporary, and i'll survive...

well i should sleep so i can be productive tomorrow...

9.07.2006

a somewhat productive day...

the unbroken handle was swapped into the turbo... took me a couple hours... i could do it in 30 minutes now i bet... i even remembered to swap the lock cylinder so my key works with it... it is really convenient being able to open the driver's door from the outside...

to further affirm my decision for a new exhaust, i set off a car alarm when i started her up today...

we got most of the homework done today... i feel bad... i'm not contributing much to the posse... i have no problem understanding it once i see it... but seeing it is my problem... maybe things will uncloud over time...

i didn't feel like going to the store so i found a recipe using chicken, rice, salsa, bullion, and cheese... it was decent for the effort involved... the salsa and the cheese were both at least 4 months old, but there was no mold or odd smells... if i regret eatting it though i'll let it be known tomorrow...

i took tay for her first real walk, not just up to the hill to do business... her legs is really so much better, she was keeping up and running ahead even... until she found something to smell, then she got stubborn.. but she moved the fastest i'd ever seen her move on a leash... it was a short walk, but she's exhausted tonight... we'll see if we can get her walking further, the path is about 2 miles... we did 0.5 miles today.. if we're lucky... i'll go out and walk the entire distance myself but it would be too rough on her right now... ideally i'd like to take her the whole path... 7:30 is a shit ass time to walk the path though... i must have gotten bit by a dozens mosquitoes...

we exchanged waves from a distance in the parking lot... then tay was on the balcony and started barking at her and her dog when they came in the building, i went out to apologized and she said it was fine and good to see tay getting around fine again, since the last time tay was up here she still had her bandage from the surgery on... i should have said more then...

driving home from the store i noticed a brilliant moon... wheni got home it wasn't as brilliant but i still went out ot attempt some pictures... as expected most were utter shit... i used the night scene setting which leaves the shutter open for several seconds... i placed the camera on a post, cuase lord knowns i can't hold the camera still that long... so i got a picture that i think is presentable... (click on picture for full resolution)


full moon... it was still a little orange, 15 minutes before it was more intense... you can see some reflections off the watertower, and its outline... then the outline of the powerlines... then some house lights... then my favourite part, the reflection from all the junk at the power substation... i like it.. just wish it was a little less grainy... this picture doesn't cover me for next week... i'll need ot have another posted by the end of the day next thursday... i'll post them as i take them though...

9.06.2006

some ups, some downs...

where to start?

physics went well... i didn't feel as stupid seeing that other struggled as well and that our answers seemed to be right... so that's looking up...

my boss is coming up the 17th and 18th to discuss some things with my advisor... one of which is my thesis topic... also, the project i worked on this summer shows great promise for more funding, i have to go down some weekend to get it set up for a demo and take some new datasets... plus i'll get paid my dayton rate while i'm down there... i wonder if they'll pay me for time on the road... hmm...

other good news... i will get reimbursed for the one extra credit over those covered by my assistantship... my advisor takes care of me...

picked up exhaust today... won't be able till install till the 16th... went over 1k miles on the rebuild today...

i've dropped the 5 pounds i gained in dayton over the summer, yay... when i return to dayton next summer i need to find my own place to live without the bad food around... at this rate i could hit 200 by years end... i'm sure it'll get harder as more fat disappears... i'll be happy at 220 by year's end... i can't remember when i was 220.... hell i can hardly remember when i weighed less than 240 until recent history...

no luck with her yet... another crossing of paths was disturbed by our dogs going apeshit... and a phone call... maybe tomorrow...

tomorrow i'm replacing my door handle... the afternoon will be spent with my EM posse doing homework...

i'm going to try to get back to posting pictures... i've really slacked on my photography the past year or so... i want to pick it up again... so here's my promise to my faithful reader... at least one, if not more, original photograph will be posted every week...



this is the bike path right next to my apartment.. this is where i take taylor to do her business... i was just sitting down for supper and i saw the sun was at that magic altitude where it becomes orange, i set down my plate, grabbed my camera and went to the bike path... it's a little grainer than i had hoped for... but i can't do much now i guess...

this weekend i have no plans... i may take the time to finally customize my template... i just need some time to play around... but now i sleep...

9.05.2006

shifting gears...

about 8 hours was spent on physics homework today... i think we have a decent understanding... we'll find out tomorrow... at least i find the other students in my group enjoyable... we're going to get very very close i think... not just through this class but through out grad school since we're all just starting with the same advisors....

friday... drove to dayton, then goth club...

saturday OSU football game... my buckeye fire has diminished... i found the energy there to be disturbing... the stadium would be divided into quarters, north, south, east, west... each would be assigned a letter O, H, I, O... then in order the sections would shout there letter... this would continue for several minutes at a time... i couldn't muster the enthusiasm to participate... we made a relatively clean entrance and departure,avoiding the bulk of the traffic... saturday night julia was in troy visiting a friend i met up with them at the dublin pub... i had meet her friend before, but she was drunk at the time, so it was like meeting all over again... but it was a good way to spend a saturday night that would have otherwise been mundane...

sunday... church, lunch with friends, replaced started on old 7 supper with family... first time i had been to bravos... the food was good the service was horrendous... then saw snakes on a plane with my sister... it was as about as expected... a little on the disappointing side though...

monday lunch with parents, drive north... wee... i would have gotten an oil change but they all decided to close for the holiday...

i can't update to beta blogger yet... i would if i could to get in sync... i can't seem to comment on beta blogs...

i have so much stuff i need to do... uhg... call agilent, some work in the lab, some studying outside of my course work, i'm forgetting stuff now i know i am...

i'll try to sleep at a decent hour tonight... i should have time to do stuff other than physics tomorrow too... how exciting... i need to pick up some packages at the post office tomorrow... i still need an oil change... i'm low on puppy food...

i'm spending more evenings at my place now... in the past i was usually over at a certain couple's place every night... things feel different there now... things change and change isn't bad... so far i'm liking the new arrangement... i get to make my own dinner more often now...i like this cause i like cooking and i can do stuff more off the beaten path now...

i should go.. tay wants some attention... and then i should sleep....

9.04.2006

good night steve...

well the weekend went fast and i'm tired now... glad to be back north.. glad to have my puppy...

sad to hear steve irwin died... my initial reaction was my usually heart of ice, yeah it was just a matter of time, i'm not surprised and don't feel sorry for him at all... but now i'm rather sad now... i can't say i was huge fan of his show.. but it seems like he was really a good guy, and used the money he made to do great things for wildlife... it's also terrible how the rest of the world knew before his wife could be informed... so i will miss him, he was nuts, but he loved what he was doing... and i'm sure he knew the risks involved... RIP Steve...